brb, hiding.

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Oh my God.

I'm in Star.


I found out when Sister Rose pulled me aside, opened the magazine and pushed it toward me. I guess one of the parishioners saw it and came right over and oh my God. It's a picture of Tony and me eating frozen yogurt. And, of course, there's a caption about Mr. Stark's new mystery flame and -- what if they find things out about me and start hounding my church and friends and family? Looking for information/dirt that really just isn't there?

This is so embarrassing. I'm gonna go hide in my room and hope none of my roommates find out.

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Nuns and priests experience love in other forms than the romantic.. And in keeping chaste, they make a sacrifice for God. It also allows them to focus on their parish and on God's children more securely, I think.

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Or it makes them all weird and creepy...

I think God made us so we could experience all of life. I think if sin exists, it's there for a reason besides damning us. I think while we live on this earth, love IS the key to experiencing the Divine.

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I can't take vows and get married. And I really want to take my vows. Right? Right.

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Look, I'm not gonna try to talk you out of a religious life if that's what you're drawn to. I'm just saying like... liking a guy doesn't have to be weird. It doesn't mean you should isolate yourself even more.

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I know it's not weird. I just... I didn't think this was what God wanted for me. I mean, maybe he wants me to like a guy once in a while, to struggle and have to decide what's right for me. But I don't think he wants anything further along those lines for me, so I guess I feel bad for Tony. Although I probably shouldn't. I mean.. it's Tony Stark.

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How DO you know what God wants?
Tony doesn't believe in love anyway.

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I don't, of course, but I have prayed about it a lot.

He doesn't? Well, I shouldn't be surprised. But, see, that's just another reason why it wouldn't work and why I should stop seeing him so much and instead focus on other things.

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I see.

Well. he claims he doesn't because he's a chickenshit bastard. You should still see him. The man needs people he actually gives a shit about.

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I... I'll pray about it.

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Please tell me that involves thinking too?

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Of course! It's just like talking to someone, talking to a really close friend.

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It's been quite some time since I prayed, cherie.

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It's one of the best ways for me to think. Praying or journaling. Or, of course, praying through writing.

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I think the last time I talked to God was... hn. After John got sick. I thought maybe He was listening too, but... I dunno.

I envy your faith.

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He's always listening. Sometimes it's just hard for us to really listen to/for him.

It's ...kinda one of the best things about my life.

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I was in a bathroom at the time.

I don't know how you do it. Part of me hates you for it, and another part is in awe.

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God can see in bathrooms.

I hope there isn't too much hate. I... I don't know. I don't feel like it's all just "faith." Like, my belief in God isn't based off of absolutely nothing: I've had some miraculous things happen to me that prove, at least to me, that God exists and that he really cares about me. And I also think that everyone probably has had those sorts of experiences, but they might not recognize them as such.

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Perv.

What sort of experiences? I don't think I've ever really seen any miracles, although my sister has, as we've discussed I believe.

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Huge perv.

Yeah, we talked about that. Once I heard his voice. And I had a friend back home who spoke in tongues sometimes during Adoration.

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Into scat.

That shit kinda freaks me out, the tongues thing.
You think you have to believe for that stuff to happen?

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Except I don't think God gets off on anything, let alone gross stuff like that.

The idea of it freaked me out until I heard it, if that helps.
I don't know... I mean, I already believed? So.

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I bet He does on EVERYTHING.

...not really!
Hn. Kay.

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He's totally sexless.

Well, it's the most beautiful thing I had ever heard.

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That's no fun.

Wow.
I just do not know what to make of you.

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Sorry~

Um... Is that a good or bad thing?