brb, hiding.

[nohabitshere]

Oh my God.

I'm in Star.


I found out when Sister Rose pulled me aside, opened the magazine and pushed it toward me. I guess one of the parishioners saw it and came right over and oh my God. It's a picture of Tony and me eating frozen yogurt. And, of course, there's a caption about Mr. Stark's new mystery flame and -- what if they find things out about me and start hounding my church and friends and family? Looking for information/dirt that really just isn't there?

This is so embarrassing. I'm gonna go hide in my room and hope none of my roommates find out.

Comments

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

Mm.

Like I said... slow.

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

Oh jeez.

What am I supposed to do?

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

Nothing you don't want to. He knows he doesn't have a chance, poor bastard.

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

I feel awful.

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

What? Why? That's so not why I told you, woman!

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

Why'd you tell me?

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

I dunno, in case you liked him too I guess, and so it wouldn't be all weird with you two.

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

Novitiates aren't allowed to date. And this kinda makes it way weirder.

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

I know.
I was hoping it would make it more normal. Oops.
Well, whatever. So what? I like him too, so... there you go! Doesn't have to be weird.

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

It's really weird. No offense.

I should probably stop hanging out with him so much.

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

How is it weird? He's not gonna like, put the moves on you.

No! Nononono! Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

Because it... it just is.

It'd make it easier for both of us. I don't want to accidentally lead him on or anything.

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

I don't understand. I'm friends with all my crushes, pretty much.

You won't. He's a genius, remember?

[ok let's officially lock this :l]

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

I mean. Well. Obviously I like him too but I'm not supposed to and it's just way worse now that I know he actually likes me back.

[locked]

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

God, I AM good! I knew it!

[locked]

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

Phhht.

[locked]

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

Okay, gloating done.

I thought you were reconsidering being a nun anyway?

[locked]

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

No, not really! I mean... as hard as the Church is to deal with at times, I still have a very strong faith of course and I still think God wants me to do something in the way of a religious life. And I don't think it's responsible of me to put a boy I've known for two weeks or so above all that.

[locked]

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

Well, no. But like...

Do you think I'm godless?

[locked]

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

No. You've talked about the fact that you have faith.

[locked]

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

Merci. Okay, so what I'm getting at is like... if God is love, why would He want us NOT to experience that?

[locked]

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

Nuns and priests experience love in other forms than the romantic.. And in keeping chaste, they make a sacrifice for God. It also allows them to focus on their parish and on God's children more securely, I think.

[locked]

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

Or it makes them all weird and creepy...

I think God made us so we could experience all of life. I think if sin exists, it's there for a reason besides damning us. I think while we live on this earth, love IS the key to experiencing the Divine.

[locked]

[nohabitshere.livejournal.com]

I can't take vows and get married. And I really want to take my vows. Right? Right.

[locked]

[speed-of-snark.livejournal.com]

Look, I'm not gonna try to talk you out of a religious life if that's what you're drawn to. I'm just saying like... liking a guy doesn't have to be weird. It doesn't mean you should isolate yourself even more.